Today is CD7 and I am loving it!
Apparently construction has started on the circus tent that is to be housed in my uterus. I can feel the twinges and pangs and while it makes me a bit anxious, it also excites me to no end. All I keep thinking is - "I'm building you a new home, baby!"
I should have posted yesterday, but I just was not feeling up to the challenge. Yesterday was the day for me to make my final donor selection and I was heartbroken when I found out that my #1 choice was out. As was my #2. #3 was no longer listed because he was also out, so at this point I was almost in tears with the poor person at the lab. Finally I went through my old donor favorite list I had printed out and found one that I had mistakenly deleted off the list. (I remember when I did it, I told myself to re-add him, but I forget to do to.) I asked for him and was told that he was in.
The thing is, it wasn't that he was my fourth choice. I believe that, in reality, he was my first choice. As I went back through and read and saw his picture I wondered why he hadn't been my first choice.
So I've taken what I had initially believed to be a negative and seen it for what it really is - an incredible positive. It is apparent that HE was meant to be the one.
I'm moving forward, so excited about my upcoming IUI and hoping and believing that I will get that BFP for New Year's!
Yes, he WAS meant to be the one!! How exciting!
ReplyDeleteI can't believe they allow you to see pictures of your donor? They don't allow that here, only standardised demographics, medical history and personality profile. I guess because NZ is so small, it is very possible that you may recognise your "anonymous" donor. (I have a known donor in case you haven't read that post). Fingers are crossed for New Year's BFP :) Good luck!